kate’s korner – feeling artistic
I am the kind of person who *wishes* they were more artistic than they actually are, and yet on some level I am determined that I am *not* an artist. It’s been that way my whole life. Even at a really early age I knew I couldn’t draw. I couldn’t even keep my hand steady enough to stay inside the lines or trace a coloring book drawing, no matter how hard I tried.
I love art. I am a great aficionado and I tend to surround myself with people who *are* artistic, or musically inclined, or are intensely creative in some other way that I find “artistic” (incredible cooks, skillful seamstresses, dancers…) Some of the happiest moments in my life have been spent immersed in the artistic expressions of others.
I have tried many things throughout the years, and given up on almost all of them when I couldn’t just innately “do it”. When I was younger, if I couldn’t do something Well then I just didn’t do it … which makes achieving that whole 10,000 hours to mastery thing a little difficult. 🙂 As I’ve gotten a little older I find that I am far more willing to “take risks” and look like a fool while I am learning to do new things. It makes doing them much more enjoyable!
But this isn’t really meant to be about any of that. I really only meant to issue a disclaimer. I am not an artist. I know I’m not an artist. Please forgive any poor art that follows. 🙂
Spring is here (well, mostly … it is raining again today, which is just weird,) and along with it the urge to create. I had this brilliant idea that I would get together a handful of my artist friends and we could all take easels out to the park and paint.
The nice thing about going out to the park to paint is that there are lots of things to look at and to be inspired by. This year the weather has been terribly sporadic though and so we have not made it to the park. Even so, I was still excited by the prospect of playing at painting. So I started thinking about what do I want to paint?
This year my life has been touched from several directions by cancer. I myself, *knock on wood* am healthy, but I have several people in my life who are currently struggling against the dreaded big “C” word. It has all of the sudden become something incredibly prevalent in my life as people I know and care for are affected by this disease.
The thing that has struck me the most, in every instance, is how incredibly strong, brave and positive these people have remained. This is only a bump in the rode, a challenge to be surmounted. I have been incredibly inspired by this and have felt honored to be a part of the support network holding them up. That was the thought that sparked off the creative flow for this painting.
I actually started thinking about computer code and how it can be a virus, or a good usable program and how cancer is similar in some ways. So I thought about the idea of computer code flowing into and out of a cancer cell and fading off. That was the beginning, and interestingly as I have gone through the process it has evolved and now I am not even using computer code in the picture at all.
Anyhow … I am very excited about the silly painting because I am having a great time doing it, playing with the paints and mixing colors, figuring out how to execute what is in my head and also – putting my creative energies into the idea of defeating the cancer.
It is a journey and a process and even through I know that it will never come out on the canvas as cool as it is in my head … it kind of doesn’t matter because I’m having a blast taking the journey. I told my husband that I kind of feel like I am back in kindergarten and every time I add something new I am like a proud little kid … Look What *I* Did!!!
I meant to do a photo documentation of all of the steps along the way, but I neglected to take a picture of step 2, which was simply sketching all of the objects in and then painting their shapes with a white coat. I will add additional photo’s in the comments as I progress, in case anybody is interested. 🙂